I can not stand the way people classify others as ;black,white,hispanic, dominican, and other things as well. It irratates me that as a new generation of children and adults that we allow this to be acceptable. I'm not just talking about "what are you?" thats not what always what bothers me. Its mostly the "she acts white or thier mad black or hispanic" or even when people say "you don't act like a typical hispanic".Indeed I am hispanic but that does not define completely who I am. Some people these days make there ethnicity all of who they are. There is nothing wrong about being a proud ______ but you don't need to let it seperate you from everything else.
Its sad when people from thier own ethnicity group tell someone else they don't act like thier kind. Its disappointing. I think I speak for everyone when I say its nice to fit in and to be apart of something that you think is great. We put ourselfves in these sterotypical mind sets and if we don't the people around us do. I guess we don't always realize how we seperate ourselfves or we allow people to seperate us.
I have been told I am a white girl by many people. They define me on how I act,how I dress,what i'm like. I dress like me NATASHA and i'm not like anyone else. Honestly if I was a white girl I would fit in with so called "white people" but I don't because I'm very different from alot of people. I'm a quite person but I can break out and have fun when I want to. I like rock,hip-hop,indie, hindi, old school rap, opera, tecno,dubstep, french and german rap, r&b, and a bunch of other stuff. I like to be a diverse person because the world isn't just America or Puerto Rico, it's every country. I don't have to grow up in a country where I'm surrounded by one culture. I get to explore and become my own person and follow my own traditions. I like to be with every kind of person and the first thing that comes to mind is not what they are because that doesn't make a difference.
Apparently this is all wrong! I don't know what a typical hispanic is but why does it matter. I'm happy with just being Natasha but some people don't see that way. In one part of my family they call me a "white-a-rican" or like just white girl basically. It gets me upset because they use it in a bad way like i'm not part of them. In the end they say "well there's nothing wrong with that anyways". Then why say it in the first place? LIKE HOW DO THEY WANT ME TO BE?!!!. They want me to be loud, snappy, violent, and wear glitter or something. I'm sorry if this is just completly off but I have no idea how to be but just me.
I think my family doesn't understand what I have been through. Many people may think my stories are not as big of deal but they definitely had a huge impact on me. My close friends growing up were all African American. I was always the lightest one. I didn't really care because to me they were my friends. I had one friend that never really saw me as Natasha but always as the white girl. She would tell me I knew nothing about hip-hop or rap because I'm white. That bothered me alot because when I was always around her I felt left out of the box.
One day we were at work and she looked at some boy at said "isn't he cute?" she then turn around to find me sitting behind her. She was suspecting an answer but as soon as she realized it was me she quickly said" Oh wait your white never mind". I have never felt so disgusted. I can't believe because I was "white" I couldn't like someone darker. After all the years of knowing me she couldn't put in her head that i'm just a person just like her. I can like who ever and what ever.
Another time at my community center my brother was trying to make friends while we where waiting on line.He was only 8 years old. He said "hey!" to some kid. I was just watching from a distance. This kid just looked at him at said "get the F*** away from me white boy!" I saw my brothers face just frown. He just stood there and this kid kept cursing at him. It had to be the one of the worst things I had to experience. I just grabbed my brother and I just told him to stay away from that kid.
This why I can't stand it when someone tells me you act this way or you don't. I can't when people experience it too. I try not to let it get to me sometimes but it sadens me that these people actually think thier justified to think this way, to say whatever they feel. In the end I hope someone will understand it doesn't matter where your from or who you have to be like. It what you want to be and you don't have to be anything if you don't want to be. I'm not saying its wrong to say your this and that but you don't have to make others feel bad that there not like you.
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